27 days:)

27 days!!!! ain't it crazyy!! (Its really 27 days if you don't count today, or the 8th considering I leave so early in the morning it doesnt count <3 )

Ever since I turned in my papers I've been getting this not so great feeling. The persistent nagging feeling like I'm gonna miss out on so much while I'm gone, or that I'm not good enough to teach this gospel isn't too pleasent. Obviously the adversary has too  much time on his hands because whether he likes it or not, I'm Going (and in 25 days nonetheless...tehe:)) 

When I get those feelings though, I  remember a talk I had with my Aunt Sherri (who also happens to be close friends with my mission president and his wife...coincidence, I think not!) Anyways, she and I had a talk late one night while we were visiting my grandparents. She told me a great story about a man who showed her the refining preocess of gems and stones. She then related it to life and how we should all work towards listening more intently to the Holy Ghost. 

I realize now that this feeling I've been getting can act as a refining process for me. I can never deny the incredible overwhelming feeling of the Holy Ghost when I knew I was meant to serve a mission. Everytime I tried to push it out of my mind or put it off, I couldn't. It was such a strong feeling and it clouded my every thought. 

In this moment, I know stronger, and more confident than ever that I AM GOING ON THIS MISSION. It's what I'm meant to do. I know it with every ounce of my being. What the adversary doesn't know is that this pressure and persistent nagging has only made me realize that I AM WORTH trying to drag down and keep up from going on a mission.

 I am so blessed to be able to go serve my Heavenly Father and bring others to this true and complete happiness I feel when I'm living the gospel. In the words of Sister Dibb in last October's conference, I am a Mormon, I KNOW IT, I LIVE IT, and I LOVE IT!